I still think of what you’re thinking.
I still and wonder what’s going on in your world.
I still wonder who will be that one to take my place.
I still think about the constellation of birthmarks on the side of your face….and the little one down below that you are embarrassed about.
I still think about your laugh…a laugh so contagious that it would have me to tears.
I still think about times where we would break night as if it were a job….oh and how about that time we decided to sleep outside and were awaken by the sprinklers soaking us?….Yea I still think about that too.
Last year 4th of July? Do you remember that? A love so sweet that I can’t even put into words the way it made me feel. Warm weather, the beach, drinks and huge bonfires. Kisses under the sun. I still think about that day as if it were yesterday.
I still think about how the warmth of your lips and how it made me feel, as if I were melting inside.
Remember that night we went out to the club?
Yes it was a good night. We used to have those. We went to Sky Bar and we sat next to each holding hands but facing away from one another. We both talked to a different guys. We got there numbers and got free drinks and by the end of the night laughed about it.
What happened to all those good times?
When there was no jealousy, no anger towards one another…
What happened to the love and feelings that were so real that we needed to see and be with each other because we really wanted to?
What happened to us going about our days and busy schedules and then coming home to one another for a release?
I still think about those days and I will never forget them.
Now as I sit here alone because of the choices I’ve made…I think about how much I poured out into us and how hard we and especially you worked to create something so beautiful.
You forever have a part of my heart and have left and everlasting impression.
I love you R.L.H